So, I just had an epiphane of sorts. I figured out why I always adored Buffy and her relationships...
Futility, mostly. Every one of Buffy's relationships was doomed from the start. And it was always obvious, though perhaps subtley. Angel? Besides the fact that he was a vampire, if he was ever truly happy, he'd lose his soul - how is that
not doomed? Riley - he was military, for one, and for another, he started off their relationship by lying to her, just like he ended it. Fortunately for the Buffy Whumpers of the world, Buffy is sometimes not the quickest, emotionally, and so she didn't make it to him in time for him to hear that she had forgiven him. And Spike? By the time Spike and Buffy got together, Buffy was so messed up, I'm surprised it was as cohesive as it was.
For someone who is as self-sabatoging as I am in relationships (this is not such a new realisation), Buffy's self-sabatoging behaviour was a beautiful parrallel to mine. And on top of it, vampires are sexy, who doesn't love to watch them get it on?
And in that note - Spike/Buffy? Hottest couple on Buffy, ever, and the only het pairing I still read. Seriously, Spuffy was perfect. Spike loved her so damn much - more even than Angel ever did, because Spike loved her when he was soulless, which is more than Angel (Angelus) can say.
But, Buffy was Buffy, and while she may have loved him, in someway, by the end of the series, she was always so hung up on Angel and everything that had gone that she had just blinded herself pretty much. And when he forced her to see, she tried to find ways to block it out. And that was another thing - Spike never coddled her, and she didn't need coddling. She needed a wakeup call most of the time, and nobody around her would ever give it to her but Spike.
Also, their scene in
Touched? Most romantic scene ever. Spike's little speech makes my heart break every damn time I watch it. And then the holding afterwards is just. Man.
I love Spuffy. Le sigh.
and this, is the best Buffy song EVER. It even has her last name in it. But honestly, it describes her perfectly...
pretend you're alive
lovedrug
Oh summer life,
oh summer life,
crawling with these worms,
you're afraid of all their germs.
oh bask in life,
oh bask in life,
the weather gonna swallow you
into the great divide,
oh enjoy life,
oh enjoy life,
climbing up those trees
and breaking all your knees.
Watch angels in the morning
become a devil's afternoon.
I will panic in the evening
underneath the crashing moon.
So fall in love while you can
still hold your head up high,
and pretend that you're alive again.
It's friends that leave you here in the end,
so hold you head up high,
and pretend that you're
alive again.
Now autumn brings
the beautiful things,
where all you give comes back to you
like the crown upon my king.
Your life's a song,
so sing along
before the silence swallows you
and leaves you like a pawn,
watch angels in the morning
become a devil's afternoon,
I will panic in the evening
underneath the crashing moon.
So fall in love while you can
still hold your head up high,
and pretend that you're alive again.
It's friends that leave you here in the end,
so hold your head up high and
pretend that you're alive.
Your friends,
now ghosts,
are screaming
"Bury us," they said,
while panicking,
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